SaveMeFromMyself

2009-01-13T20:09:00.000-08:00

Hello to All!!

i predict this is gonna be a short post
nowadAYS i don't feel like blogging anymore
maybe because am feeling ALOT of NEGATIVE
things which i don't want to talk about or even mention
my job has been my way of escaping and has been keeping me
busy but it only helps to a certain extent. =/
my birthday is tml and i m so not excited or looking forward to it
at all. so much for once looking forward to my 21st birthday party
for all that comes along. am happy m not having a party or anything
its just gonna be any other normal day i hope really today i will try taking
off for tml since that's my order and yea. PS: HAPPY PONNGGAL TO ALL
INDIANS!!!!! MAY ALL HAVE A BLESSED YEAR AHEAD!! (:

on a HAPPIER NOTE I M SO PROUD OF MY BRO FOR PULLING IT THROUGH
REALLY WELL DEsPITE ALL THE PAIN AND DIFFICULTIES HE FACED!!!!
ALL UR EFFORT PAID OFF!!! U R AN INSPIRATION THAT EVEN WHEN IT COMES
TO THE VERY LAST LAP A SPRINT DOES WONDERS (:!! I LOVE U SO MUCH!! BEST WISHES TO YOU ((:

and i am also really extremely happy for him too!! enough said.

ok i gotta go get ready to go for work! so that's all for now! take care and love u all! (:

THANKS TO GOD (:

2009-01-07T03:38:00.000-08:00

HELLO 2009(Never Too Late =p)

Dedicated to all my Darls: SO here's ur 7th day after new yr update =p
er SOOOORRRRRRYYY TO ALL OK!!!
REALLY M!! =/
PSSSS: TP M EXTREMELY SORRY BUT I HAD NO CHOICE??!
well BUT I DO MISS U HELL LOT AITE! N thanks for calling yest
although i could only talk to u for a minute! PSS: i hope u'll call me tonight
like you said MR POLICE OFFICER in the making than ahem drop out
change to air force, pilot i don't see a link but it doesnt matter i WANNA know
how your first day in police academy was!!! haha and really thanks for calling yest
although i could not entertain your call =( i did not expect u to call on the first day!
n since u act can read my blog at night which is seriously STUPID ! NOTE:
PS TP: DON WASTE YOUR MONEY ALTHOUGH I KNOW U CAN AFFORD IT AND GO TO BED!!!! *ITS AN ORDER*

well not much has happened since the last time i blogged or its juz i cant rmb.
i shall start from new yr eve and the 1st day of 2009 like i said i spent it with my beloved
family like how every special occasion is supposedly spent. (: IT WAS AWESOME! WE DID
*ALOT* OF UNEXPECTED things and went to UNEXPECTED places!! haha it was fun i shld
say but I REALLY THANK GOD THAT YOU MADE ME THIS WAY ; just for me and him to know, haha well yes! and like every other day MY UNPLANNED NEW YR AND NEW YEAR EVE WAS FAR BETTER AND i think it would have been if we planned but for the zillionth time
MY PLANNNING ALWAYS FAILS but i guess i love suprises (: well enough said those whom i've met up af new year to hang around and celebrate our mini new year parties with childish fantasies and wishes i shld say should know everything and once again M SOOOOO SORRY TP!!! DIN GET TO MEET U A DAY BEFORE U CHECKED IN REALLY FELT BAD!!! =((((
thanks for understanding (: PS TP: I MISS U! =(

so much for that AND TO THE REST PEEPS I DONT THINK I'LL BE FREE ANYTIME BEFORE CHINESE NEW YR =/ AND EVEN MY BIRTHDAY IS A QUESTION MARK! =/
oh well BTW I QUIT MY OLD JOB N NOW M WORKING AS A CASHIER AT FAREASTFLORA: MAKE SOMEONE SMILE TODAY! its weird how my previous job and
the current one has the word SMILE in their tagline! haha ok anyway the SmartVoice job din work out because they changed to fully commissioned based and so ya it was a sad farewell but i need a job with a stable income so me being me am here now and am happy where i am for now (: Hope my EYE SIGHT improves and comes to a stage where i don't need glasses anymore HAHA that's how much of green things i see everyday! er i mean PLANTS AND FLOWERS AND FRUITS! my place is more of flowers a little bit too much of flowers but i guess somehow my Geo stuff i learnt in sec school did cum in handy when e customers ask me stupid questions lyk which fertiliser and jelly repotting and all that crap i can act ans! haha and am glad m loved by everyone there lyk its something new =p m not ___ ok stating FACTS! =P anyway yes i guess
i am a fast learner i act learnt everything on the first day of my training within 2 hrs! and the training is supposed to last for three full days HAHA and that act was a shock to everyone and the CHINAS with their broken eng call me CLEVER GIRL =/ ARGH n i have become their eng teacher for now =/ oh well...... my A lvl education had to have helped in imparting some wisdom in me i guess (: For now am still having fun PLAYING with money lets see how long this goes!

and yes THANKS TO TINGXIN AND CHERYL i might take on the Acheivers job af m done with the cashiering thing since this is long hours! cant wait to work alongside with my funny clowns (: oh yes + GOOD SPEAKERS! =p and i have to mention my smartvoice boss he called me yest when i was cashiering and asked if i wanted to do teaching at EU HUA if tts hhow its spelt he wants me to teach O lvl english i dont really mind i like SmartTEAM SCHOOL OF MANAGEMENT only because of the logo, the place and the school sounds nice plus its not fully local its a combined effort with some of the most reputable Australian schools which means _____ and it also benefits ______ to some limet! HAHAH but after talking to my mum i realised the place is tooooooooo AND I MEAN EXTREMELY FAR SO ITS JUST IMPOSSIBLE THE NEAREST MRT IS LAKESIDE ITS LITERALLY FROM ONE CORNER TO ANOTHER CORNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was supposed to go for an interview yest but i told Henry(manager) that if they provide transport allowance than i don't mind coming but he hasn't call me as of yet lets see where that goes. haha N I GOT A REASON FOR WANTING TRANSPORT ALLOWANCE THAT'S BECAUSE FROM THIS YR ONWARDS ALL JC GRADS HAVE TO PAY ADULT FARE from my place to orchard back n forth 5 bugs gone i don't have to mention to lakeside how much that will come up too -.-

anyway the only reason am act blogging today is because i took leave from my job today
haha that explains the tiny bit of time i have to type (: and yes other days i only have time to watch my 10:30 drama and sleep that's like how long i work -.-
so today i did a bit of catching up on my sleep am supposed to watch a movie with Hilmi but ya i was too lazy and sleepy =/ anyway my point is i wont be blogging as much as before becoz of work as and when i do get the time i WILL ok so ya! (:

WEEEEEEEEEE YEEPIE TP just texted me HAHAHAHAHA (: ok that was funny =p anyway tml will be another super long day at work=/ oh well i just hope the queue doesn't get any longer its extremely stressful and if u key any thing wrongly like u charge their nets or credit card wrongly than u have to pay for it =/ that's scary! dreeeeadddssssssss

hmm that's all the update i have for now that i can remember I WILL BLOG WHENEVER POSSIBLE! AND MY TAGBOARD IS GOING OFF SOOON FOR GOOD LIKE NOW AFTER AM DONE WITH THIS POST BECAUSE ITS UGLY AND ITS STANDING OUT IN A WRONG WAY =/

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i actually learnt from a health
magazine that crying everyday
is good for your eyes! weird but that's
what i do every night at least
the minute m not occupied with anything
it just happens he still lives within me and
i guess he always will? and where this leads
me i live to find out?! where and how and will
this barrier be broken only God can ans that
for he knows best! i know what i want and what
i yearn for and what i need but GOD KNOWS THE
BEST AND IN THE END i cast it all onto him for
HE is my GUIDE, the reason why i still breathe!
Silent night!

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2008-12-30T04:49:00.000-08:00

MY VERY LAST POST IN 2008

SO SORRY TO ALL, i know i have been MIA
FOR SOME TIME
but hey that's becoz m lyk meeting every one of u
and all my other friends before 2008 ends!!
so ya i cant rmb what i have been doing becoz
u know my memory lags
so i only can remember things that happened a day before =/
like what KIM said(so sorry) haha it was great catching up with friends i haven
been able to meet up for some time like my 1st 3 months OG n CG ppl
am lucky they still keep in touch n ya it just felt great catching up
AND I SOOO DID MISS OUT A HELL ALOT HUH =X
oh well watched a couple of movies bedtime stories, Australia( A MUST
WATCH MOVIE), Bolt...
but one movie that i first thought was gonna turn bad but was great was
AUSTRALIA! its lyk one of my few non fiction movies i watched which i loved
although at first i thought I'd probably sleep throughout THANKS TO KIM for like
surprising me with the movie by LYING but yea he knows me it was GREAT (:
and how TRACY did her stupid oOoo HAA drip drop tangy wangy dance infront of
2 ANG MOS!! (acknowledging the fact they are cute!!) u see i have weird friends but
the fact that they are themselves (: and yes DID I EVER MENTION GOD DOES MIRACLES
IN THE MOST UNEXPECTED TIMES AND I LEARNT THAT WHEN U LEAVE IT TO HIM EVERYTHING WORKS ITS WAY OUT, lyk how my days n TP's days were packed but we still met and like how we met randomly unexpectedly when our meeting today was cancelled but wen i was out wif my bro and my chandni we meet him (: and how to begin with i never expected to meet chandni in 2008 but we did for 3/4 of my day today and how i was supposed to meet zie only on Tues, 2009 but we met
outside at park mall . The list goes on but i shall stop =/ anyways my sec school poly friends are having
exams can't wait for them to get over and done with that and we can party (: i realised i have been taking leave from work to party wif my friends and in 2009 i vouch not to do so and be a good girl (:

anyway sorry i din mention about my Christmas but it was awesome cant be any better
esp when you spend it with the ones you love like i don't have to say how much my family means
to me and yes my new year eve, tml and new year 2009 will be spent with them (: love all of them to bits (: so yes am staying over tml and thus THIS WILL OFFICIALLY BE MY LAST POST IN 2008!

oh well its kinda sad knowing that 2008 is just gonna be apart of our memory lane, a past
and it will never come back and its just gonna be gone forever, but the memories will last
a lifetime (: 2008 has been the WORST and at the same time the BEST years of my life (:
worst well for obvious reasons something i guess I'll always regret, enough said and best because
I've grown and matured alot inside and am so much stronger and I've learnt alot thanks to everyone who played apart a way or so in my life in 2008. i ain't gonna do a review of my year because firstly u all know once i start I'll never stop and i don't have much time so i cant, but overall its just so special and i just can't describe it in words BUT IN SHORT 2008 WAS A YEAR WHERE I GREW CLOSER TO GOD so much closer and i surrendered my life totally to his hands and that is an awesome feeling, it really is even now when i think about how i made that decision am proud of myself, it wasn't easy but i know am in the safest and most caring and loving hands ever!!! I LOVE U GOD!! GOD DOES MIRACLES (:(:

am so sorry i know am not going into details and touching and going but I'll go back to that in 2009 (:
PS: I GOT AN IPHONE i think all of u'll know already so ya FINALLY (: WEEE
well i guess i shall end here for now GOODBYE 2008 AND WELCOME 2009 WITH MY ARMS WIDE OPEN! WHATEVER MY YEAR BRINGS I AM READY FOR IT FOR GOD IS MY SAVIOUR AT THE END OF EACH DAY (:

*****ADVANCED NEW YEAR WISHES TO ALL MY DARLS!! THANKS FOR EACH AND EVERYONE WHO MADE MY 2008 WORTHWHILE AND HERE'S ME WISHING U GUYS
A BLESSED AND FULFILLING 2009 WITH PLEASANT SURPRISES THAT BRINGS SMILES
AND HAPPINESS TO U ALL AND THE STRENGTH TO FIGHT WHATEVER OBSTACLE/HURDLE THAT 2009 BRINGS ALONG AND BE THANKFUL FOR ALL EXPERIENCES AND TO GIVE PRAISE AND THANKS TO GOD FOR OUR LIFE AND A NEW YEAR AHEAD OF US AND GROW IN HIS GUIDANCE ALWAYS (: *****

PEACE OUT
WITH LOVE
UR ONE & ONLY
L.A.M.P

2008-12-23T02:30:00.000-08:00

VAARANAM AAYIRAM

yup that's the name of the Tamil movie
i watched today
i finally watched it
well i was supposed to watch
it when it hit the big screen but
i donno why i was running away from it
oh well but yes the movie was a sentimental
one centered on the relationship between that
of a father and son (: its weird how SURYA played
both parts; it must have been fun talking to himself
haha BUT HIS ACTING WAS AWESOME!!!
apart from the fact that HE'S HANDSOME AND HOT!
haha and Sameera Reddy IS SOOO CUTE! haha its sad
the director had to kill her half way through the movie =/
and hello am straight ok but she's very bubbly and cute.
this is her first Tamil movie and it was good.
the storyline was somewhat diff than the typical films
the director did an excellent job i should say
and i guess now i know why the movie was
awaited with so much anticipation and its good to know
that it wasn't a disappointment like the STUPID MOVIE
THE DAY THE EARTH STOOD STILL whether the earth
really stood still KEANU REEVES HAD ONLY ONE FACIAL
EXPRESSION THROUGHOUT THE MOVIE (-.-)
So much for expecting it to be a blockbuster
and yes I know my comparisons abit er out
of place but who cares even if one is Tamil and the
other English they still are MOVIES so ya =p

continuing my review the songs are awesome,
i love them. i love sentimental love songs loads!
it helps me emo better and yes i just said that.
the songs have been my latest addiction (:
PS: My blog song is from this movie,
song name: Nenjukkul Peidhidum

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well honestly that movie did have an impact on me
thanks alot MR DIRECTOR =/
it tangled my heart strings and brought me to tears
i realised how much was within me that i just could not
bring out to anyone or speak about other than the normal
casual remarks which my famil knows about maybe because
they knew about everything. but till today i cant really show
how i feel deep inside or cry infront of them and i don't want
to either for obvious reasons and oh well my acting skills are
soo good to an extent my mum thinks i secretly got a boyfriend
i can't help it if that's how much they understood and thought about me
see well no one ever understood the me inside other than GOD of course.
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oh well life still goes on...
Holding on tightly to God's hands
at least he won't let go even if i did
LOVE YOU

2008-12-22T04:06:00.000-08:00

TITTLE - LESS POST

so i think its been two days since i blogged.
sorry did not get the chance to blog
i shall cut everything short in this post about
my weekends and talk about work today.
Saturday i stayed at home
i cant remember what happened =/
its soo long ago my memory is getting weak
ok anyway Lisa texted about the class chalet thingy
so if any of you guys did not get her sms because i am
supposed to pass down the news but er am lazy besides u people read
my blog so ya do call her ok its tml night till Christmas eve, don't have
to pay a single cent its her treat =p rich woman! i will be coming down
for awhile after my work due to the pressure from TP. haha oh well so sad
can't meet up before Christmas but its ok we'll have the gift exchange thingy after which

and Vivian darl texted me wa women i missed u man! did not realise it until i got your sms!
where have u beeen?! and btw 24th and 25th am staying over at my cousins place so can only
meet after that ok! AND ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR PERFORMANCE ROCK THE STAGE DOWN (:
and i realised that its been ages since i took pictures and uploaded them onto my pc and i lost
my stupid cable for my hp so i cant transfer them either. daddy will be getting me an iphone soon than whenever that i is i hope its soon! i need pictures to brighten up my bloggie (:
yes YES CHERYL TAGBOARD IS COMING SOON. i need my bro to help me with that because i cant get the code rite =/

AND FINALLY I MEAN FINALLY IRSHATH DECIDES THAT HE NEEDS TO GET BACK TO SINGAPORE!!! Mr i think the whole world who went to even more happening places came back ages ago!! OOPS SORRY =x but U KNOW ok! and sorry for not answering your call when you called from India er i left my hp at home =/ and U SO JUST HAD TO COME BACK A DAY BEFORE YOU NS POSTING RITE?! BOO HOO anyway m glad u came back one piece haha so sorry about Saturday i was in the temple MR we'll meet the coming weekend when you read my blog CALL ME! =p

as for Calvin yes my annoying irritating and weird friend haha THANKS FOR HELPING ME WITH THE COURIER DUDE! I hope you did not freak the woman out =p

and by the way i have this sudden love with eclair sweeeets!! (: my dad bought like a whole box of it! am sooo gonna get diabetes and if any one you have problem choosing a complimentary Christmas gift *ahem* hahaha =p

oh yes yes TP THIS IS YOUR LAST WARNING ALTHOUGH AM YOUR BEST FRIEND AND which means YOU CAN ASK ME OUT ANY RANDOM TIMING BUT HONEY AM WORKING!! GET THAT *SPELLING* RIGHT WHICH MEANS AT ALL THE WEIRD TIMING YOU ASK ME OUT AM NOT FREE?! AND WHEN YOU WANNA MEET AFTER MY OFFICE HOURS LET ME KNOW A DAY IN ADVANCE NOT 2 MINUTES BEFORE AND TEXT ME YOUR BELOW MY BLOCK I DON'T HAVE WINGS SADLY AND I MIGHT HAVE HAD PLANS TO MEET OUR OTHER FRIENDS!? haha sorry dear don't be angry i know i turned you down a zillion times but maybe because you needa inform me before hand and don't give me shocks sorry for making you wait with my favourite melted ice cream!! HOW COULD YOU LET IT MELT MR! next time eat it on my behalf. haiz its ok we'll have an after Christmas partyyyyy!!

AND DANIEL ANOTHER ONE , this is probably the last time am telling you i don't meet any of my guy friends even if your my best friend at night =/ its just my rule thingy haha bare with it or u have no choice =p so night movies are out of questions! only my boyfriend can (: than again.... ok shan't go there.

so my Saturday nothing much other than the temple visit which gave me shock after shock and it just had to be me noticing everything first and seeing them. haiz i wanted to talk to him but i could not did not have the chance too. his presence just reminded me soo much of him. oh yes i saw HIS cousin. yup tts who am referring to. and ya i saw my so called cousin, not exactly but he's kinda close to my dad's side so ya! its weird how all our meetings have been in the temple. haha anyway am really glad i gotta visit my beloved GOD at his home (:

and my sunday like always unexpectedly i went over to my twins place than after which we went with my aunt uncle bro and all to the Padang stadium to watch the Singapore vrs Vietnam soccer match i know you people would probably be staring at what i just typed BUT YES I DID OK =P the environment was gr8 its the sudden adrenaline rush and all the patriotism that hey we're from Singapore ok and we are gonna rule this match kinda high feeling sets in but than again you people would have probably have known the results =/ and yes i know you people rather watch the arsenal match that happened yest! haha sorry guys my hp died on me so i could not reply you people yest. ya so that's about it can't remember anything else

today's work was good i closed down SIX cards!! can u believe it!!!!aaaahhhhh am loving it (:
oh and yes Haizal came over today to finish of his submissions. he looks funny with his hair chopped off! and Eric was so nice to buy lunch for me (: thanks for coming down with Evelyn (:
and girl don't worry it will happen like how you want it too ok! love u babe!

and oh yes CONGRATULATIONS on the 6th reunion of the so meant to be couple!!! i expected it la! i mean u guys are soo meant to be and the very few rare people that i know who are still together happily attached after 31/2 yrs despite the countless amount of breakups you two went through!! wwooohooo. well am glad you two took my advice and stayed apart for a while because that's what i learnt a break up only has its effect if two people take the time off to reflect and work on the relationship instead of rushing to get back together! glad you guys did not give up! way to go! haha so after this NO MORE BREAK UPS OK! u people have been through so much hell but am proud of you two for holding on i guess that's what true love is! i WAS SO HIGH WHEN YOU CALLED ME TODAY TO INFORM ME OK!! haha SO INVITE ME FOR YOUR MARRIAGE (: love you two loads! and am stealing your girlfriend out next week so don't you dare come between. haha got stuff to catch up with =p

and am sorry i don't know what to feel anymore. i guess i have become emotionless and numb to love. it doesn't work anymore so don't bother trying! thanks! =/
but still i stand strong thanks from all the love from my beloved family and friends! love you all!

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Dear God sometimes i want
to give up and never face it again
but what am i trying to hold on to?
maybe i know, or do i?
help me face reality and please
wake me up from within..
counting on you my one and only hope
I LOVE YOU (:

2008-12-19T04:03:00.000-08:00

She puts on different faces everyday.
That's why you can't trust her,
when she says she's okay.

Masquerade, hiding it,
When i know it best

Did i ever mention how much
i love English literature?!

2008-12-19T02:46:00.000-08:00

I DID NOT GO TO WORK TODAY =P

haha i could not wake up was too tired.
and than again i should went to work
because my friends were calling AND THE
STUPID CALVIN PURPOSELY BEING
THE ANNOYING PERSON THAT HE IS
kept smsing and disturbing my sleep.
its good that at work you don't have to tell
the reason for your absence just say you wanna
take leave besides am paid anyway so yup =p
probably could not wake up because last night
i was high for some weird reason,after having a long tiring
day somemore oh yes am weird its a known fact so
i was on the fone with my other half for a while
after my mega serial of cause which ended at 11pm
than after that she wanted to sleep and i was attempting
to sleep when TP called me! haha he was telling me about his
five hour exam for his air force thingy which i don't quite get, what all that
but ya when we meet up than you explain again =/
all i understand is that he's busy with his SUPER LONG air force tests
and fitness training which am sure he enjoys (: good for u! haha and i pity him
just done with our As and now he's gotta study and sit for long exams 5 hours
that's like worst than As..at least As although six hours for one paper we don't do it
in one sitting. oh well press on dude! at least your doing what you like dear and its your dream
the air force although i still don't understand how you can actually sign on there when your
NS posting is to police! you've got a whole lot explanations to do and plus *AHEM*
and yes GUNDU YOUR STILL MY BESTFRIEND AND ALWAYS WILL!! funny boy
i need to spend more time with my besties, than again no planning hope my days plan well
themselves, GOD does MIRACLES! (:

anyway today i was at home the whole day managed to catch up on my lost sleep, read CLEO(2009) girls you should read it esp TRACY =p its interesting! than what else
hanged on the fone with my sweets and my twin! (:
nothing much actually, my weekends nothing planned so far or more like
i don't believe in plans when it always plans itself for me
all i know for know is i am going temple with my family (:
Can't wait to visit HIM at his VERY HOME! (for the gundus
M REFERRING TO GOD OK!!!)

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and around six this whole emo feeling set in =/
oh well i got used to it anyway but still i can't get over it,
its just something which only GOD can help me with.
WILL I EVER GET OVER TO THE OTHER SIDE
AND LIVE MY FANTASIES AGAIN?
OR STILL LIVE BROKEN DREAMS AND CLOSE
THIS CHAPTER/ ASPECT OF MY LIFE AND NEVER OPEN
IT AGAIN? why is there still love when nothing can be done to salvage it,
i can't hate him and i never will, how do you hate someone
you once loved with all your heart? and even if there's hate it is a strong
emotion you probably wouldn't waste it on someone unless
you had strong feeling for them. than again i guess matters of
the heart was never understood all there was, was the words
that comes out of your mouth, i guess its true when people
said its hard to pick up the words you spilled onto someone.
i read this book once, my friend knowing that i was interested in psychology
gave it to me. it was interesting and its so true.
the pain or hurt feeling that we feel is because we perceive wrongly
that what people say, feel, think and do coincides together and works
the same way. If only life was that simple? i guess that's true.
than again what's love? leaving someone when a flaw is found out?
or loving someone and knowing that their perfect for you because
they are imperfect? or when someone chooses to leave and end everything
to just let go and give up? if giving up was a choice than was there even love?
break- up doesn't mean the same to everyone, to some its a break for them to heal
and to reflect and to have time out in the relationship its not like there's no love anymore?!
than again here am referring to people with some maturity but to most teens a break up is
just an end to the relationship. but than again something to learn out of this is break up means
different things to different people. most importantly what i learnt is never to mention the word
especially so when you still love the person and its the other things that's troubling you because
all those can be fixed and worked on with but if you truly feel nothing for the person at all which is weird esp so when you called it love?! than ya a break up is necessary because there's no point
staying together when the feelings are gone. so the point is the only reason to a break up should be a love that's dead and nothing else because everything else can be worked on with. but i learnt a little too late din i? but everything happens for a reason rite? but somehow i know my reason its God's way of punishing me because HE knows that the worst punishment is when i don't have the love beside me anymore. its sad that HE never knew that. its sad that he doesn't know that my very happiness lies with him and that its my life that's left me. but than again HE'S not GOD to know it all. GOD your amazing and i thank you lord for everything for the teachings, for the lessons for helping me grow and mature and MOST IMPORTANTLY for never forsaking me and giving up on me no matter what and for believing in my even when i let you down and for loving me not because you had to but because you choose to (: I LOVE YOU DEAR LORD for
strengthening my relationship with you despite everything and for being my very strength when all was lost. My happiness lies in his happiness no matter how cliche that sounds its true and its sad i am the reason for that lost but i hope and the only thing i can do now but its the most effective and powerful is to pray and hope for his happiness no matter what that takes because
that's the only thing that can console me, nothing else. I PRAY LORD and I'll keep praying.....

Pray With All Your Heart

2008-12-18T04:25:00.000-08:00

WOOOOHOOOOOOOO!!!!

my day was interesting and weird at the same time FUN!!
so i again slept longer and took a cap down it was peak hour
and i had to reach there fast so i went by ERP and guess what
my fare was $15.60!!! =/ there goes my pay ah!
oh well anyway when i checked in( logged in) few mins ltr
i closed a courier I WAS LYK SOO HAPPY and i managed to
PUSH TO THAT DUDE TWO CARDS!!!! AHHH HE BOUGHT
THE DINER'S JACK PLACE AND DELIFRANCE co brand cards!!
ARNT I GOOD! than my boss was so impressed considering the fact that am new
wow actually ITS MY WONDERFUL SCRIPT THANKS TO THE ANNOYING
CALVIN AND HAIZAL (:(:
anyway i had to leave early around eleven because i had to go to yuhua sec school
and like i mentioned in yesterday's post i was supposed to be meeting MY DARLING
CHERYL at lakeside mrt and pick her up than go to the school since is very near.
considering the fact she lives 11 stops away from the place, oh well THANKS BABE!
so yes HUGS were happily exchanged she another one just came back after visiting
two countries! reminds u of TP rite?! and that guy ah argh TP U SHOULD JUST THROW
YOUR FONE AWAY I KNOW WHAT I TOLD YOU BEFORE BUT NOW U REALLY SHOULD
THROW IT AWAY =P

moving on yup so we went to the school via cab luckily everything was covered , the taxi fee i mean. YUHUA LOOKS LIKE A PRIMARY SCHOOL! lol the classrooms at the corner of the staffroom reminds me of my kindergarten rooms =p haha it was funny and being with CHERYL
made everything all the more silly and hilarious as you people know she's a CLOWN =p
haha anyway SURPRISINGLY THE SCHOOL DID EXTREMELY WELL FOR N LEVELS THIS YR. its was the best so far compared to the last two years. and all their sub was above national avg and the top student was an Indian gal! OH M PROUD OF U (: haha ok anyway we just distributed the papers spoke to the OM, the teachers and interested students! and some stupid INDIAN GUYS came like as if they are interested and wanted to sign up and asked for my no instead =/ I WAS BOILING AH WASTE MY BLOODY TIME! AND DO I LOOK LiKe AM 16 !! =/ since i mentioned about that, its saddening to know that i DO NOT LOOK MY AGE. AND EVERYONE NOT EVEN ONE PERSON IN MY WORKING PLACE KNEW I WAS TWENTY. THEY WERE LIKE SO YOU ARE WAITING FOR YOUR O LEVEL RESULTS LA EVEN CALVIN AND MAY AND JUNE =/ SOOOO SAD. i know am supposed to be happy because i don't look old but I JUST WANT TO LOOK LIKE A 20 YR OLD NOT ANY LESS is that not normal ?! oh well i guess i just have to get used to it.

anyway ya other than the stupid Indian guys with no life everything else went well. in fact i had 2 hrs to talk to Cheryl while waiting which was GR8!! she being a christian actually all my non-Indian friends which is like 3/4 of all my friends; they so happen to be Christians! yea so she is from cornerstone church used to be going there but i stopped because of As and my parents and the whole you are born as a Hindu and u die as one lect but oh well i respect my parents and I'll never go against them had like long talks with my mum about this and somehow i understand and whatever she said made sense. i mean in the end its not about a religion is about having a relationship with God. and i BELIEVE GOD IS GOD AND IF YOU BELIEVE ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE SO IF YOU BELIEVE THAT WHAT YOUR PRAYING TO IS A STONE THAN ITS ONE BUT IF YOU LOOK DEEPER AND YOU BELIEVE ITS GOD THAN SO BE IT. because as long as you believe and you have faith and you pray God is there and he touches your life in many wonderful ways. It doesn't matter whether you a Hindu , a christian , a Buddhist whatever as long as you wanna reach God and you believe that's all matters (: I LOVE U GOD! thanks for helping me understand.

so ya as i was saying Cheryl was talking about God and about intellectual stuff and our convo went deep and it was meaningful and its just awesome la. with her its easy to get serious and talk sensible interesting meaning stuff and at the same time talk absolute rubbish with no sense at all. haha anyway after that around 3pm DR Chua my boss came to see how things are and she dropped us at lakeside mrt where i and Cheryl decided to eat at take 5. haha the food was soo good. we ate chicken curry nice it was supposed to be noodles but no more. but the curry was nice and the chicken was so tender and the potato was so soft. haha well both of us love to eat and we were like doing our very own food analysis commenting on everything like some TV host for a food programme =p

yes than we where having WEIRD CONVOS ABOUT FOOOD! CHERYL YOU SERIOUSLY NEED THERAPY and SHE ACTUALLY GETS SICK WHEN SHE EATS CURRY OR SPICY STUFF AND SHE TOLD ME THAT AT THE MIDS OF OUR FOOOD. U better not fall sick woman! that's why i was wondering how come you are actually eating that when you cant take spice something weird happened to her which i still don't quite get but ya now she loves it=p
anyway after food i was hanging out with her and oh ya while we were passing subway i saw this two cute angmo's ...aaahh haha and one of them said to the other' oh isn't that girl really beautiful?' to the other!! OMG I WAS LITERALLY FLYING!! HAHA they said it loud enough i could so hear and even remember the words until now and CHERYL HAHA CHERYL IS JEALOUSS!!!
HAHA AS YOU ALL KNOW SHE WANTS A WHITE BOYFRIEND BECAUSE SHE CANT STAND ASIAN GUYS BECAUSE THEY CANT SPEAK AS WELL AS THE WHITES OR CARRY THEMSELVES IN SUCH A WAY THAT THEY DO! WHICH TO THAT I TOTALLY AGREE!! HAHAHAHA and woman honestly you would definitely get one la, well you speak just like one and you behave like one la besides all your ex..... =p

anyway so much for our fantasies. so after dropping her off i cabbed down to work and there waited for me my twist from spinellicoffee thanks to Olivia!! and it was great i love the drink soo much! now i know where to go =p

so after the small meeting regarding the smart team school of management thingy i went back to work and thanks to Calvin who bothered to update me with what happened. so apparently am off on 24th,25th,30,31st of December because of Christmas and from 22nd Jan till the end of the week am off because of Chinese New year (: take down the dates people and you should know the rest.

ya so pretty much the rest was just my fun work and for the first time Calvin and i had like a sensible convo which meant something. LOL

oh btw MAY AND JUNE LEFT WORK =( THEY QUIT BECAUSE THEY HAVE TO GO OVERSEAS! all the best to them.

and tml is my last working day till I TAKE A BREAK BY SLEEEEEEEEEPING WELL!!!! I NEED SLP!! SEE HOW MY THINGS GO FROM TODAY ONWARDS I WONT PLAN ANYTHING ANYMORE since it doesn't make a difference even today am supposed to eat at BK but we ended up eating at take 5 so much for planning but the food there was good so no complains. weeeekends here i come!

ok am tooo tired to blog anymore and if my other half happens to read this here's my reply to your post: I LOVE YOU MORE

AND YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MY OTHER HALF
HUGGGIIEEEEEEEESSSS (:(:

so here's me waiting for my Friday!

2008-12-17T04:28:00.000-08:00

MY FIRST WORKING DAY (:(:

well today was goooood !
i cabbed down to work today
because i wanted to sleeeep longer =p
anyway my day started off with the briefing
about tomorrow's release of N level results what i am
supposed to do at the booth and all. i am posted to Yuhua
secondary school which is like at the West and i live in the East=/
so anyway like i mentioned its good to be picked as one of the representatives
but its not good when everyone is assigned to diff school and one person per school
so lonely. of coz we are not allowed to bring colleagues down since they have to like work
but i can bring my friends which is great. AND MY BEST FRIEND AGREED TO HELP ME
OUT!!!! YES YES CHERYL IS COMING WITH ME AND I KNOW I WOULD GET ALOT OF PEOPLE TO SIGN UP BECAUSE SHE'S LIKE THE VICE PRESIDENT IN MY JC and yea she's really good at talking, talking and oh ya talking. chatterbox, that's why we are best friends (: i know you'll be reading my post later at night like you always do so HERE'S A BIG BIG THANK YOU FROM ME TO YOU! HUGGIEEESS
you'll get a real one tml (: thanks for postponing your outing with your friends for my sake
although i told you a million times you did not have to. don't i have awesome friends? arn't you
jealous =p friends who not only are there to hang around and have fun but who are there to help you out even if they are not paid for what they are doing or when they can be somewhere else having fun but they choose to be with you. haha maybe am sooo special to u all =p but still its when they do something for you without expecting anything in return that is such a blessing and its hard to come across people like that.
and oh well I LOVE YOU CHERYL SOO VERY MUCH!! FOR EVERYTHING EVEN THE SMALLEST THINGS MEAN ALOT TO ME! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOUR PRETTY FACE TOMORROW! (:(:

by they way call me after eleven at night ok i need to do some admin work stuff for tomorrow!
so moving on after the briefing my manager was doing the final bits of the remaining things i needed to know about my job than i had to do a role play with him and i passed that so after which i only started my job in the evening around 5 which gave me only on hour to work =(
but i am paid for everything so its ok. anyway i was so excited and it was so fun calling and talking to working adults. i managed to get two mails sent to their house for two customers.
and i was so happy talking to people that i actually worked till 6.45 which is 45 mins past my
logout time. =/ oh and did i mention my desk partner is this guy who's my age and he is always
annoys me! when i get calls he answers like he's the customer and he pokes me with his pen and he is IRRITATING! but than he's entertaining. haha he somehow makes the working environment fun and entertaining. and he's really nice and helpful and he's very caring (:
haha he just likes to disturb me and get into my nerves but other than that he's a fun individual.
by the way today i did not go for lunch because he bought waffles for all of my click members. haha so nice rite?! i know that's not lunch but it was very filling. what else oh YA HAIZAL CALLED ME TODAY! (: haha that gundo ah he got my hp no can call me there or call my office extension number but no he won't do that you know he will purposely call Calvin and ask him to call for me but i was not at my desk was at a meeting with my manager and so since Calvin called my hp i went to my desk and my office phone was on speaker mode because CALVIN wanted to play his usual lame pranks and HAIZAL was like hello BEAUTIFUL GIRL , it was so freaking embarassing than all the staff were like with their phones and they thought he was my boyfriend or something, nonsense la cannot even recognise Haizal's voice and the rest you people should know. =/ all his fault ok! argh.. anyway am glad i got to talk to Haizal today he's so sweet he just called to ask how's my first day at work and yup. apparently he's coming down tomorrow, hope i get to see him.

so yup that's all i can remember about today, right now am gonna go check out how to get to yuhua sec tomorrow from my work place and go plan with my Cheryl where to meet and all
so i shall leave with this msg: 'ALL THE BEST TO ALL WHO ARE COLLECTING YOUR N LEVEL RESULTS' best of luck people (:

PS: here's my answer to your Qn if you are just yourself and you blog like how you talk, informal of coz and not like an entry exam for some Nobel book prize award trying to impress the readers with your vocab skills instead of focusing on getting the message across than you have failed to blog effectively because if they wanted to read and appreciate your superb writing talents than they would rather do so with a book! so ya just blog like urself not like your doing a gp essay and you'll do fine trust me (: sorry if i was a bit too direct, but you know me! anyway all the best in that, love you babe!

2008-12-16T05:22:00.000-08:00

One of the verses from the song LET GO by Kristine Mirelle

Maybe I just thought I had you here
I thought that you would not go anywhere
I abused my position and I didn't care
And now that you no longer turn to me
And it seems that you got over me
I can hardly breathe
You no longer need me
I'm just sorry I found out late but all the choices I Made I thought of me
And not how it'd be to watch you walk away
I know I'll never make it right but everyday I try
In hopes you might come back you're where my heart's at
I have to find a way

Still trying.....

2008-12-16T03:28:00.000-08:00

SURPRISES

one after another surprise in my work
today went well but i have not started work
yet because now am currently undergoing
a teacher training to teach in smart team's
school of management.
well my manager asked me if i liked
teaching and whether i would like to teach
English and if your wondering whether am referring
to kids nono i thought so too he wants me to teach
O LEVEL students =/
weird rite? considering the fact that the highest qualification
cert that i have with me now is O lvls because i haven exactly
got my A lvl cert yet. anyway he said i would assist in helping him
teach first than based on my A lvl results i can choose to be a part time
teacher if i go into Uni. or my career starts there?!! still shocked. haven exactly
recovered. so he'll be giving me training and all. he said my pay will be close
to 2000 a month or more depending on how i teach =/ notice my expression
which is consistent because i am feeling the same way as you now.
anyway he was saying that the N level results will be released on Thursday
so am supposed to go down to a sec school assigned to me to distribute
brochures to inform the students about this smart team school of management
thingy and how it works. its pretty cool i wished i did that with my As together
than i would have two certs and if i enter uni i would just enroll in the second year
and skip the first.hmmmm.... anyway wow opportunities just keep knocking on my
door (: it feels good! anyway if your wondering how come my manager is linked to all
this well smart voice where i am currently working is under the smart team which also deals
with the management school am talking about (mainly business) so yea he was apparently
watching me these few days and saw some weird potential and that's how i landed here.
so if everything goes well than I'd probably quit smart voice but still under the smart team but
work with my manager and assist him in his lectures. anyway will update more as i find out more.

i had lunch today at KTM ( if i can remember exactly the acronym) i thought my colleagues were
joking when they said that the building is owned by Malaysia and the people there are all Malaysians.
anyway that's where people take train to go to Malaysia. so cool today i got to see the tracks and trains
and eat good food. I realised that there are a handful of Europeans travelling booking their tickets to go
to Malaysia. I spoke to one couple today actually they spoke to me they where asking for directions
and i learnt from them that usually foreigners after visiting S'pore they'll go Malaysia via the donno what hub
plan travelling agency.

moving on today is Haizal's last day at work =( he's studying some fashion beauty thingy so he changed to part time, so i wont be seeing him around much. anyway although i know him for barely a week we clicked really well
because he was him. haha you know what i him he's frank and he's just himself not another photocopy which makes him unique and interesting and most importantly what i liked about him is he's not afraid to be who he is and share it with you with such great confidence that its impossible to judge him. anyway i hope we don't loose touch and stay friends (: He gave me a spotty eyed green yellowy doggie for memory but i don't see how that describes him but anyway when the doggie paws to you there's a bell like sound. so cuuuteeeeee! and the ribbon around the doggie reads lets be friends! haha do you not see the irony! =p

anyway tomorrow i have to report at 9.20am for the briefing thingy for thursday. arrghh.. that means i have to wake up at seven fifty =/ ok i shan't complain but its still better than waking up for school. oh well..

till tomorrow comes,,,

2008-12-15T04:02:00.000-08:00

And Training Continues......

so i did not get to start my job today
but this time for sure i am definitely starting my job tomorrow
haha anyway i do not really care am paid for training
so nothing else matters.
i got to see my room and table
my very own PC and phone and all today (:
anyway, my day today did not really start off well
i left home at 9:30 and i realised i left my e-zlink
card at home so i went back to take it but it realised i had
less than 20 mins to reach my workplace so i decided to take a cab down
and i paid 10.6o for the ride. haha so much for forgetting my card
shall be more careful next time =/
and than everything went per normal...
shan't go into details.
oh me and my friend found this food centre
cant remember the long name
but anyhow the food was sooo good!
now we know where to brunch at ((:
and it was ridiculous because we just realised that
there's a BK near our workplace so we don't have to go
to international plaza for that but than again we still would go
for the beautiful sights *winks*
and i also learned that ADAM KHOO'S MAIN OFFICE
is near my working place!! how cool (: more things* to see now.
aahhh. i remember my sec school days where i had an awesome
time during the workshop and i went home feeling so motivated,
more organised and focused. but than again it did not last for long
but partially i did well for my O levels thanks to their crew of awesome
motivational speakers. I'll never forget my speakers and so when am free
one of these days I'll drop by there (:
anyway so much for my unexpected discoveries today
am looking forward to ending training and getting started with my phone
ooohh how i love talking (:

anyway after work i went to meet my sweethearts for tea break
at a very special place. haha sorry can't mention , although i love too but too bad the rest of my darlings don't know my this group of sweethearts (:
one fine day am gonna bring all my closies together and intro everyone to everyone (:
that would be sooo much fun! i was talking to Shane about this on the phone when he called me during my training because he was BORED((TO SHANE: did you not find any other MORE appropriate time to ring me?luckily i was having break,so much for knowing, anyway am so lucky to have friends like him whereby there need not be any special reason to ring up and you still feel so at place and at ease (: . oh yes you owe me dinner on Thursday when we meet up since i actually said something nice to you for once=p) )and the self proclaimed hottie agreed to plan an outing since he knows that group and most importantly since he is loaded and got so much money to spend that he doesn't need to work. so unfair. PS Shane: you are hot la ok, anything to make you happy =p

and so after which i came home and here i am blogging. anyway there is so much inside me that i feel like vomiting out but i don't wanna go there and dwell on it for now.i know am supposed to be revealing Every single detail thanks to my blog URL but somethings are just better left unsaid. (:
As for you so much for calling me that or even mentioning that i am one to you. its obvious you never knew the meaning of it. So much for hiding and thank you God for revealing! its weird how somethings passes your mind at the weirdest times when you never expect it and than how that forces you to go find out and when the truth stares in your face , you have two options; pretend you never knew or confront and when you don't get what your supposed to be hearing than you judge and you know where the person stood all along! God does miracles! (:

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My heart though
heavy and hurt
I'll never let it break
because inside it at a
very special place is where
i have locked up and kept you there
where even you can't open because the key
is with God.
so much was said so much pain was caused
but the motive and the reason stood strong
sadly that was never seen or realised.
i guess you forgot what i told you once
'Hold my hand tightly and never let go,
because i don't want to be the one holding
as am afraid that i would let you go'
you agreed. i guess i hurt you and caused you
so much pain that there's no more power to those
words. In the end little did you realise that when
you ended what i started(like how you put it) that what
you took with you when you walked away was my life =,(
Little did i realise that the price to pay for my impulsiveness
was YOU ,my very life. All I've done is too hurt myself,
by hurting you. i guess this time there was no more going back
no more space for another chance, no more reason for forgiveness
its my fault for learning things so late. BUT THANK YOU LORD
FOR FORGIVING ME! for listening to my prayers and for giving
me hope when all hope was gone. For strengthening my faith and
love in you and for making me grow into what i am today (:
For now all i wish for is your happiness. For a much more worthy
replacement of me who is deserving enough for you. Who would love
you with her all and never break your heart like the way i did, who would
see you through everything, and be the reason for that one smile,
to be a mum who's love is pure, a sister for a shoulder to lean on anytime,
a friend to share your ups and down with you and to be you very own till
the end of time and even after that! For all this i pray and most importantly
for God to hold your hand and walk your journey of life with you! I will always
love you and you will always have that special place in my heart no matter what.
Thanks for all the memories and for all the love you shown me that i never knew off at one time.
I do not know what God has planned for me in my life, maybe he thought i was being
a total bitch and decided that it was time to release you from the suffering and i am glad
he did that honestly. And i am thankful for the suffering that i went through and still going
through because without pain there is no gain. through this whole thing that i typed
i felt as if i am talking to you. although i know you would probably never read my blog.
i thank God for this medium of expression and i never did plan to type all this it just came out
of me. oh well anyway i just wish him nothing but the best! so much said. ok here's me ending off with a
small discovery that i just made.

its surprising how
hurt,heart,heavy,hate
all start with the letter H!

2008-12-14T05:16:00.000-08:00

My Sunday

my Sunday was spent with my cousins
like i mentioned yesterday
once again it did not exactly work out
the way we planned it to be
but like it always goes, the day was already planned for us.
left home nearly 1:30 than went to marina square
with my bro, did not meet up with my other half(RATHI)
because she was like 11 stops away so my bro and i decided
to get the chain for Tiffany(baby cuzzy) first than meet up with
her at city hall mrt station. anyway sadly the chain that i and rathi had
ok wait by the way the reason why Rathi is my other half came from the chain
theory haha. its like half the heart is with me and the other half is with her, mine reads
best and her's the tie ; together BESTIE! ok keep your comments toURSELF!
and yes Tracy my tagboard will be up soon ok.
so since we could not find the same one we had i choose this pinkie cute one it reads
best friends when put together! i wonder who she will give the other half too.haha
moving on after meeting up with my other half the three of us went to compass
point got snacks(jigs) and i got mac and bro got a meal from BK and we went over
to my baby cousins homie! where we played one game of snap 'so called'
than Tiffany and rathi wanted to play donkey so yes we played that until Tryan was
left with one card the Donkey card but the game was not over yet but he thought so and
decided to walk out of the game. haha. than after which we played bridge(family game)
with rathi my bro my uncle(mama) and me. than later i was playing snap(my version)
with the kids when mama decided to join in and later my cuzzie and than my bro.
yup around seven plus rathi had to leave because her journey home was far so yea.
than my bro and i and my baby cousin's family ate at Sakura restuarant. food was good.
price was good too =/ than yup my uncle bought food for my mum and after which we left home.
ok i left out something before we went to eat which was at compass point we were watching the
remaining bits of the MR MEN show. haha CUTENESS! but sadly Miss chatterbox did not come out =( only Miss sunshine, Mr smiley, Mr grumpy, and i cant remember the other character was there. anyway they just did a few Christmas songs and all. yup that's about it.
this post is kinda like a review of my day. sort of so don't mind the dryness of it. hehe

so tomorrow is the continuation of my training and than i start my work which officially starts after my lunch break. hope everything goes well. the weekends are officially over =(
anyway am looking forward to my busy week. will blog when i have the time to do so.

ok i got to end off soon bro wants to use the com. before i go i want to say something:
I LOVE MY FAMILY! (:(: at least i know no matter what they'll never walk out of my life,
even if i choose too.

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Am so confused
i need answers
but i move on
holding on to God's hand
tightly for i walk
the road of life with
him as my guide!

2008-12-13T04:41:00.001-08:00

Zinda

Hello all lovable darlings who consistently actually bother
to read my long and considering the extremely loooong posts
and give me comments via sms =/
ok since u people are my precious little things
okok sorry you get the point precious little people doesn't
sound as nice. anyway i'll get a tagboard sooon ok!
see am so nice i listen too =p

if you'll are wondering what's up with my blog title today
that's good because am here to explain and if you did not notice
than now you know because either ways my main topic for today is
that so yup.!

the title comes from a hindi movie ZINDA released in 2006
apparently i did not watch it than or was either aware of it + neither did
i plan to watch it today on central because of the movie's genre
which was action/adventure/mystery/thriller which basically
is not my cup of tea. the tv so happened to be on because i was watching
another programme before the movie than i was reading the instructions
of the game old maid, snap and donkey. yes you can laugh all you want =/
my childhood card games but i know am too old for it now but not too old
for the sake of my baby cousins (: i found those cards lying unwantedly together
with the so called unwanted things in this unwanted cupboard that stores unwanted things.
Since now they have become wanted at least the cards they must be smiling (:

sorry i lagged for some time my other half called me (:
PS: for all the weird friends who accused me of not telling
them i got some hot dude on my back! GEEZ MY OTHER HALF IS
MY TWIN! A GIRL OK FEMALE. MY COUSIN and a sister whom i love
to bits! PSS: If i do get hooked up mark the word if o.ooooooo1% chance of
that happening actually it all depends on what's He's planned because right now I've stopped
moving on with life my way and do it the way i want it to be since..... so ever since
i have surrendered my life onto thy hands and for him to guide and show me the way.
i trust and have faith in the creator of my life because i choose too and because
he loved me before i did and gave his everything....the list carries on.
and i know i totally missed the point well the point is if i EVER do
get attached I'd tell you'll especially you people who know about my
existence of my blog because you'll are my closies and because you all
mean something to me and I LOVE YOU ALL. so don't make me repeat
this again ok or it will just become cheesy and all mushy. =p

and i should take the opportunity to apologise
to you all for my loong long post, you guys know me
well enough to know that once i start something i just
go on and on that shows from my previous parag when all
i was talking about was about just this short phrase 'my other
half' haha ain't i good at developing my points. i hope it shows in
my gp results =/
ok after going totally out of focus on what am supposed to mention
i was after finding the cards i was reading the instructions at the back
as its been years since i played and ya my mum was helping me with that
that i was occasionally getting a glimpse of what's happening in the movie
when i realised that the movie was getting so interesting and i was totally
glued to it. it was unlike all other stupid movies that fail to meet up with the
genre especially the thriller/suspense movies which to me is the hardest to
achieve as in meet up with the exceptions of the audience ok here am referring
to people with a certain level of intelligence. Am saying this because most of the movies
or at least the movies i watched its so predictable , you just know what's going to happen next
like you can just be the director of the film which reduces the status of the director. The director
of this movie Sanjay Gupta was amazing like there was not even one part where what you actually
think would happen Happened. My mum who's like soo good in predicting could not even make it
out. that's how good the movie was. To add on i am not a fan of such movies because love has always
been my favourite genre as you all know. Erm it looks like am promoting the film right. =/
just that its outdated news, 2 yrs ago. oh well to all who love this type of movie genre go watch!!

Here's a two line summary of the movie: For fourteen years of his life, Balajeet Roy (Sanjay Dutt) was imprisoned without knowing what his crime was nor where he was. One day, he is suddenly set free and has four days to find out why he was imprisoned and why he was kept alive( that's what zinda means ALIVE). So begins his quest for answers and revenge. And the juiciest news is that JOHN ABRAHAM IS IN IT!!! ok at least for me.

anyway so much for the movie. but somehow this movie got me thinking about the vulnerability
of a girl. which to me is the weakest point of a girl's life or for i shall say the only disadvantage i can think of for being born as a girl. ok maybe not all girls will thinks such. here i am referring to girls who have some morals and virtues and who believe in keeping their virginity for that one guy who marries her.i mean to me its like a gift that you give to only that guy a part of you that is only meant for him. that's something special. like what's the use of sleeping around with everyone and when you finally settle down with THE ONE and do the same, what so special about that?! like you are just giving him everything you've given to all the guys you met along the way. Its like your husband stands in the same position with all the other guys. he just becomes another one instead the only one. than again it all boils down on how you define sex and what it means to you. especially for girls as its from them that a life is born. Its something so special and its important who creates that life with you not some jerk or someone not meant to be. All these are my personal opinions. so this parag was about girls who willingly give themselves.and yes you can call me old or whatever i live in the 21st century and i enjoy every single part my teenagehood ok maybe half adulthood to the fullest but just that i do it in the RIGHT and safe way.

For girls who don't have a choice to safeguard their virginity as in its taken away from them unwillingly like their sold or their raped and all that yea that's the vulnerability i was referring to actually. its just so saddening when you see such things happening around. Its like their innocence is forcefully taken away and they are forced to be a woman at a young age. It's more of an emotional thing that they go through which is what torments them. they start hating their body and all. at this point i got something to say. people can take anything and everything away from you but there's one thing that is always yours and no one can stain it other than you that being your soul. the body is just an outer clothing that cover what's inside you and that's what God sees. So no matter what live to purify that inner you and cleanse your spiritual being and focus on the real you ( your soul) rather than the clothing (your body) because when you die your body rots in one corner and what surfaces from it is your soul and its your soul that God recognises not your rotting body or the ashes. Than again all this will only make sense
if you believe in the existence of God and the soul. For all non-believers your time will come
when you start to realise that you weren't made out of animals via evolution that makes you so insignificant and not special (it only shows what you think of yourself = low self esteem) or some science crap HELLO wake up humans cannot create humans like how an example a handphone is not a creator of another handphone and for people who believe that you where formed by sands and rocks i just got one thing to say GET YOUR BRAIN CHECKED and for people who choose not to believe in God because of all the superior power and the whole power thing that gets to you well IT TAKES SOMETHING MORE THAN WHAT YOU'VE GOT TO CREATE YOU BECAUSE ALL CREATORS ARE ABLE TO CREATE SOMETHING BECAUSE THEY HAVE SOMETHING THAT YOU DON'T HAVE AND IF THEY ARE YOUR EQUAL THAN NO CREATION CAN TAKE PLACE. makes sense?! if it doesn't than either you are just stupid or your pretending to be one or you are in self denial or your just afraid to acknowledge or to come to terms as your self absorbed with the fact that your the superior being and there's nothing more powerful than you. EGO AT WORK. If you CAN believe in harry potter and aliens and witches and magic spells and not GOD than i seriously think its time to wake that sleeping brain of yours.
anyway as i said your time and place will come. For now just read the post from my point of view =p

Once again, like that's something new; i totally diverted from one topic to another. rewinding like i was saying although i am not in their shoes and i can relate to them and i pray to God that if of cos no girl in their right sense would love it when their virginity gets forcefully taken away from them but ya i just pray my reasoning works for me and i would be strong and do like what i have said. I am a strong girl ok at least in such issues.anyway i sometimes get amazed at myself like how am able to come out with such good philosophy. haha
anyway looking at the bright side of life although that's a girl's weak point God has given her a beautiful
gift the power to produce a life (: that's something special. but i know what you people are thinking look who's talking. well i love kids ok its just the giving birth thingy well I'll deal with that when my time comes.

so continuing biologically we are the lucky ones. our sex organs are inside us. so we can feel more deeply. sex affects our entire being. it strikes us in the heart. In our very core. For us, sex and love comes together. like a two-edged sword the day a woman enjoys her first sex-encounter,she's cut in two.(in case your wondering the two comes from the inclusion of the child) but the guy remains the same. he can spend a night, hundred nights, with a woman. than he goes away. his life and body don't change. but a woman's body does. she can conceive. and carry the fruit of those hundred nights in her body. nine months long. inside her body. look upon it as a curse or joy. it depends on whether one is loved or not, doesn't it? but a curse or joy the fruit grows in her. and never quite departs from her. not even after abortion.this wonderful parag with some words i included comes from one of my literature text: Fistful of colours! see how literature works in our life (:

and for the boys ok men, they are just shallow. you guys can't help yourselves. its your biology. your sex organs are outside your bodies. so you can't feel as deeply as we do.i mean to put it crudely, between the thrust and the spasm, its all over for you guys. we are the fortunate ones. yes its from the great book Fistful of colours too. er ok you can start hitting me with rocks now. to add OIL to the fire the reason why its on my blog is because I SO AGREE TO IT =P at this point i thank God my tagboard is not up yet for i know the wonderful comments I'll get from my darlings. see i called you guys darling ok. i am nice. anyway you guys are special ok because your my bestest guy friends so it doesn't include you because if your probably a jerk you can never be my friend what more read my blog (:

ok i think this blog post is the longest i have every typed. and my hands are hurting and plus i have sacrificed my
tamil movie just to blog so you people owe me an ice cream each if you read this post. (aside: this is my technique of avoiding comments from you guys) and i know i have miserably failed knowing all you people.
anyway I THANK THE LORD ABOVE FOR SUCH GREAT FRIENDS COUSINS SIBLINGS AND SIMPLY EVERYTHING FOR I CAN SHARE ALL THIS WITH THEM KNOWING AND WITHOUT FEELING ANYTHING NEGATIVE BECAUSE THEY UNDERSTAND AND THEY KNOW ME WELL AND MAYBE BECAUSE WE FALL IN THE SAME WAVELENGTH =P(:
THANK YOU TO ALL FOR LOVING ME FOR ME!

anyway i have made plans for tml. which i shall blog about tml if i do have time. Can't blog anymore or my brother will kill me. by the way if you noticed the so called plan i drew for Saturday is gone because i stayed home with no regrets thanks to the movie and nevertheless am meeting my cousins tml so yea. and as for Tracy and nick sorry for cancelling on you guys. Wednesday is confirmed ok! and as for my TP so sorry for replying your sms one day later and for replying me the very next second and being so nice. WHAT CAN I SAY THAT'S A REASON WHY HE'S ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS. thanks for all the understanding and care ESPECIALLY PATIENCE in handling me you seriously deserve an award! haha

ok peeps that's all for now or i am forced to say that because of my brother.=p
TO ALL HAVE A GOODNIGHT! (;

2008-12-12T05:30:00.000-08:00

PERANAKAN CUISINE

haha yes am back after an hour
or so to blog about my dinner
one of the rare times my whole
family goes out to dine together!
as my blog title says that's where we ate
there was this whole row of shops
and me being me i choose the one with
the posh look with a cozy and nice ambiance
and it so happened to be the Nonya cuisine
the food i shan't say fantastic but it was good.
i liked the environment though (:

now coming to the bill
walla it was 50 bugs plus if i am
not wrong
worst still they charge for LITERALLY
EVERYTHING! like every single thing
and for the most ridiculous things
let me name one like the wet towel??!?
very stupid but i don't blame them
its the recession period i guess they earn alot
by charging 1.20 per wet towel and there's 4
people in my family so do the math.
and they also charge for the appetizers like
the archar and koropok which we did not
ask for to make it worst.
ok i shan't go on and wine which is practically
what i have been doing.
but like i said earlier the environment was nice
and the waitresses where very friendly and pleasant
and they served rice in a basket and they were
so concern about what we thought about the food
and they bothered to explain what a peranakan dish
was but of cos when i saw the bill i realised that even
that was charged under 10% service charge?!
yes like i said EVERYTHING was calculated.

anyway that's so much for my dinner today
oh yes i have to mention this which was so saddening
my bro did not let me hold his arm because of lame
reasons but my mum was allowed ok er i know that comes
with a question but me =(
oh wellss...so much for....

most importantly my hp bill was 200 plus =/
yes i know why it was such and i know what i got
to do now. but than again i always knew, so much
for control and discipline.
looking forward to my next bill though.

anyway my brother is counting down
because he wants to use the com so
i shall take my leave and go read up
on what i learnt for training today.
and talking about that i just remembered
that the restaurant accepted only two kinds
of credit cards and one of it was the Diners
Club which is what am selling so i guess
its kinda popular and known so i hope my selling
works its magic.

that's all for now. and yes my brother if your reading
this am sorry
for taking up your time =/ (and by the way you did not have to say that)
and this time the GOODNIGHT IS FOR REAL!
LOVE YOU ALL!

2008-12-12T02:17:00.000-08:00

OOoOooHaAaAa!!!!! ~~~ there goes the Girl With so much to prove =))))))

i am kinda HIGH now so you should expect this post to be
all cheery and happy like and nothing but positive
TODAY WAS AN AWESOME DAY!!!!
I LOOOOOVVVE MY WORK!!!
yes its coming from me ok
I JUST LOVE IT!!
Although i have not officially started working
the training itself was Ahhhh so WONDERFULL!!
ok don't ask me why but ya!!
can't wait for Monday to finish off my training
and start my job man.
And here's the tagline of smartvoice
can't remember how it goes exactly but its something like
'Say Hello With a Smile'
i love it!!
i love everything! =p
well its true actually.
when you say hello with a smile
the other person would just know it and u'll make
them smile at too like this :D

ok going back training was gr8!
i did mention that.
today Mr Henry(my manager)
sorry i got the name wrong in one of my post =/
he's just so nice and friendly .
he was soooooooooooo nice that i er
ok i actually said this out loud: YOU ARE THE MANAGER?!!
when he handed me his name card. =X
that was such a blond moment.
moving on, he covered two topics today one was
about the documents such as the pay slip,
cpf contribution history, income tax notice of assessment,
company employment letter and the other was about
the courier service all the timings and all.
enough of the dry stuff will not dwell on it.

anyway the training was interesting. i enjoyed it
the whole time and i like what i am doing!
today was like one of the days where i thought
everything is just gonna go all wrong and
that i would end up hating my job and regret it
but it had the total OPPOSITE effect!! *smiles*

now i have my confidence up and i really think
i can do this!!! thanks to all the lovely colleagues
who are so friendly and nice and fun to hang out with
and most importantly all their success stories
and how they are like making MONEY
like water its really inspiring. And the people
am referring to are around my age
that makes it even more cool and happening
IF THEY CAN DO IT SO CAN I (:
its all in the power of my VOICE!! haha
so its not just the job its the environment
and the people and just everything!
i jjust love my job!
something i never thought i would say but here goes.
anyway i can't wait to start work on Monday!
will update more when the time comes yea.

anyway THE WEEKENDS IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER
a few more hooooours!!

MY PLANS for now:
out with my other half (love you babe) (: ( that's for Saturday)
out with nic and tracy (ps: don't forget what you peeps owe me =p)(on sunday)

Than again as i mentioned its the so called plan for now and from
experience that which i have blogged about. plans and me don't exactly
click so i hope the plan remains the same. either ways i'll update yea!

For now i shall end with some meaningful thoughts to ponder on:

* 'Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of
battle.' (this is so true)

* A sharp tongue can cut your own throat.( i can relate to this SO WELL! =<)

* If you want your dreams to come true, you mustn't oversleep. (er i'll try to abide by this)

* Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important.(yes so SMILE always!)

* The best vitamin for making friends..... B1. (this is a smart one)

* The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts. ( can someone tell me how to control your
thoughts??!)

* The heaviest thing you can carry is a grudge. (well i don't quite agree but yea grudge is equally bad)

* One thing you can give and still keep...is your word. (Hmmm.. so much regret.. if only..)

* You lie the loudest when you lie to myself. (yesyes!)

* If you lack the courage to start, you have already finished. (YEA BRING IT ON)

* One thing you can't recycle is wasted time. ( =( )

* Ideas won't work unless 'you' do. (Hmm..)

* Your mind is like a parachute...it functions only when open. (what if?)

* The 10 commandments are not a multiple choice. (nods)

* The pursuit of happiness is the chase of a lifetime! It is never too late
to become what you might have been. (with the help of God)

*****Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you
right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a
reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes
your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it
would be worth it. (:(:(:

*****Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them
back. Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may
not even notice that we've let them fly away. Sometimes we are so caught up
in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong.
Sometimes we just don't realize what real friendship means until it is too
late. I don't want to let that happen so I'm gonna tie all you people to my heart
so I never lose you. (yes i'm referring to you if your reading my blog and its i who
gave you my url than you are special and i love u (: )

arn't i sweet?! (:

ok so here's the highlight! something which made my heart skip a beat. thanks to my bro's stupid
christmas tree lighting! he and my mum was doing up the christmas tree.CHRISTMAS IS AROUND
the corner! can't wait (: as i was saying the stupid lights thingy had some problem, only half lits up and the other
half was not doing its thing so my dad was trying to fix it. he was dealing with the fuse and the wires and than i saw a spark and a thud sound. =( luckily my father did not get an electric shock or injure his eyes! oh geez! so here's the time i go all sentimental and mention that i love my daddy and i don't ever want to loose him! sometimes we get so used to the daily rountine that we stop appreciating and valuing the ones around us until its too late. so yes! the point is I THANK the lord above for being there for my daddy and stopping anything serious that could have taken place. I love you God (:

God's love is seen in all the people around me!

with that heartwarming thought i shall end... GOODNIGHT TO ALL!

2008-12-11T16:00:00.000-08:00

DREAMS

am feeling so many things right now
why is this happening?!
Dear God your supposed to be helping me
DREAMS DREAMS DREAMS(literally)
when am not even thinking and am happy
when i close my eyes and drift far away
why does it come there to haunt me?!
Whats all this supposed to mean?!
and to make it worst why is everything
so vivid and clear there
and when i wake up
why do i yearn so much for it
why?! Only you have the answers
to all of my questions.
Please show me the way
and help me understand
I miss it sooooo much
I have no more chance
to make things right
than why does it come
back to me every time i move
away from it???!
Will i ever be free again?!
I don't like this caged and locked up
feeling; being neither here nor there
stuck in between.
All heavy inside, unable to express
how i really feel or let the tears come
down freely on its own..
God please stop those dreams
i really love them sooo much and
my heart is soooo happy when i get such dreams
and there's no possible way i can describe how it feels
but when i realise that it only stops there;
nothing but just a dream, something
that will never become reality; all that high
positive feeling turns and becomes the total
opposite and i don't like feeling that way
who does?!
Please free me from those dreams...
Dreams only mean something when they can
be achieved and turned to reality
am referring to the denotation and
connotation of dreams here.
both ways what am getting at is
i don't want any dreams that can never be a reality,
and only remains a dream.

ok i shan't prolong about this anymore.
God you know me best
and you also know whats best for me
and i do believe that everything happens for a reason
so show me the reason someway somehow please

just as i typed that it has started to rain heavily here
that's so drama but it compensates my emo
feeling so well now.
looking out the window seeing the heavy downpour
and the darkened clouds
and each and every rain drop.....
ok i will not go into the literature mode =/
i just love the weather, its so chilly, cozy and nice.

Dear God i hope all this feelings
that i feel so strongly about goes away
i don't want to waste my time and my effort
when its never going to be reciprocated
its just so stupid
i know its stupid but i cant do anything about it
please be my guide and show me the way.

i hope for a miracle, please do your magic!
All i can do now is pray, hope, have faith,
and wait for that one day that i will be able
to completely let go without feeling anything
but happiness!

on a much lighter note, when i woke up
today my first call was from Andrew;
he was the one who interviewed me for the job.
he finally called to inform me that my training
is tomorrow from 10:30 - 5/6 thereabouts.
so i would probably start work from Monday
onwards. i did mention that my working
hours is from 10am-6pm! i don't think
I'd be able to blog consistently when work starts
but I'd try my very best to constantly update on the
happenings around me
this job is really going to be a challenge to me
i would either really enjoy it or the other way round.
i shall try to be optimistic for now and see where this
takes me.

For now my day has just started and i shall now go see how my
2 kittens and 3 puppies are doing! ha ha
virtual ones. but its like so real you can literally do everything
that you do with a real pet just that its not Real Real. =p
thanks to my bro who uploaded the
programme to my phone along with this racing
game asphalt4 which is equally entertaining
especially now that i have become an expert at
it =p

by the way since today's topic is on dreams
i have to mention that for my A levels GP
paper 1, i did the essay on dreams too. The
question was : How important are dreams?!
it was the shortest question.
and yes me being me with utterly no factual evidence
i always end up doing the philosophical questions
using reason to hit the marks. *winks*

anyway my mum just came home
from work, i shall go eat my brunch with her

GOOD DAY TO ALL!!

and She waits....

2008-12-10T01:10:00.001-08:00

This is so true!

2008-12-10T00:02:00.000-08:00

''Every STORY has an END,
but in LIFE every
END is just a new BEGINNING''

I love reading story books(fiction)
but than again me being the choosy and fussy one
i especially love reading love novels by Nicholas sparks
and Cecelia Ahern. anyway
now that i got so much time to spare
before my job training
i was just browsing
all my books deciding which book i should continue
reading since i stopped them halfway due to As.
i realised that its hard reading love novels now
and its painful and it hurts and the point is
i hate feeling this way
and love novels always made me feel so happy
and light and somehow it always made me hope
and wish and have faith in that beautiful fairytale
dream; every girl dreams of at one point of their life
but for me its just not one but EVERY point of my life
and to one fine day have that dream a reality especially
when that's all you ever wanted and wished for
only to break and destroy that dream
because of your own insecurities and circumstances
and worst still not able to do anything but watch
what you started take its end;
is what hurts the most.
But than again its I who have hurt myself
by hurting you.

er ok i kinda diverted from one place to another =/
anyway i just don't want to feel sad reading love novels
its not supposed to feel that way.
i want to be happy and feel how i felt before and love whatever
i loved before and smile at whatever that made me smile before.

is that something big to ask for?

And as for you this is what i have to say:
Be who you are and say
what you feel, because
those who mind don't
matter and those who
matter don't mind.

2008-12-09T05:49:00.000-08:00

I GOT A JOB!!

not the job i mentioned about in my first post but another job
oh well the job i mentioned about turned out to be a real disappointment
so much for not knowing that recruit agent is an agent's name.
they suck big time because they suck your money. So e supposed interview
is with the stupid agent that's a big time liar!!!!!!! so pissed
so if they happen to call me i am so going to turn them down.

coming to more happier news; OK not so happy but ya.
this job i got is also a call centre environment job but you handle outbound calls
andn its linked to telemarketing something i so hate but oh well. i am supposed
to sell credit cards through the phone.
the working timing is good 10-6pm
the pay is good. basic pay $1200
its commission based according to them they people there earn a minimum of 2000 bugs
well hopefully that's true.
by the way the company's name is smart voice.
the people there look smart and speak well as can be inferred from the company's name.
am not so much worried about speaking because i know am good at that but its the selling part
that annoys me. so much said for now. so now am waiting for the training. they said they'll call me by tomorrow. i somehow have a gut feeling this is not going to end so well. =/
well lets see where this takes me

right now my sweet darling friend is sending me websites to go find jobs. so sweet of her
haha. anyway i guess I'll just stick with this job for now and see if this is my thing. anyway
I'll be working at the same building as my friend which is the only thing that is consoling to
me now.

by the way am extremely exhausted now so don't mind my dull tying post.

so recent updates on whats going on with my life:
i kind off realised that planning is so not my thing
every time i plan something it just fails me
and when i don't plan everything is so perfect
like this job that i got. ok not perfect but unexpected
i just walked in with my friend asked for a job they so happened
to have vacancies and i got the job after the interview.
and Sunday when i was lazing around at home around late
afternoon my aunt called my mum asking if i can stay over at their place
since Monday is a public holiday
and ya than i packed my stuff went to my baby cousins place
spent time with the kids.
played cards with them.
and Tricia the third child is sooooo cute(ok random but important)
anyway after which i went to compass point
played bridge at their place than went to my aunt's house the one who called
us to stay over . my dear parima
saw my other half: rathi(my closest cuzzy n twin)
had a heart to heart talk with her this time it came from her side; am glad she shared
i hearts her to bits. (love chain)
oh and did i mention i MUST REMEMBER TO GET THE LOVE CHAIN FOR MY BABY COUSIN TIFFANY TOOO!!!!! SOOOOOOOON

so yea moving on at their place we played bridge as usual(our most loved family game) which never
gets boring
ok shan't go into details everything went well.
on Monday we PLANNED mark the word PLANNED to go to beach
as expected it was raining the whole freaking day and spoiled our plans
so much for planning
so we stayed at home instead. ended up playing bridge and karaokying(so called)
since the mike was not cooperating with us
oh yes my baby cousins came over too.
played a few card games with them too.
oh and did i mention that my hp just had to die on me this two days should have brought my charger;
no social contact at all =/

as expected when i returned home yesterday night my hp was flooded with sms
anyway 1 sms made me smile from one end to another!!
TP IS BACK TO SINGAPORE!!!!
I MISSED YOU!!
glad everything went fine with you overseas.
go two countries some more. its not fair your life is more happening than mine!
ANYWAY I CANT WAIT TO MEET HIM SOOON!!
i got SOOOOOO much to tell him and so has he!!
cant wait to hear about *ahem* so exciting!! and don't you forget to bring all the pics!!!
=)

As for Tracy and Wan Li ; i have to go threading with them sooon!!! hope the days plan themselves out for us since the other way round is so not going to work as previous experiences shows.

So for now SmartVoice here i come for you. =)

as for now i have to go catch bayam if that's how its spelt in English. i already missed one episode on Monday so have to catch this! till next time ........... ok maybe am going to miss the show today too. chatting with my loved ones
are far more important (:
am i not sweet (: *winks*

PS: i love you sweetheart. thanks for everything! thank you lord for such a lovely friend! i treasure her!

oh nooooooooooooo. luckily Daniel just came online or I'd have totally forgotten to reply him. well its MAJORLY his fault for smsing me at 4am when NORMAL people actually sleep. er ok i don't blame you i know you know that i don't sleep early but i had interview today so ya. so soorrry!!!! shall go talk to him online now before he kills me!

GOODNIGHT EVERYONE!!

2008-12-06T03:23:00.000-08:00

ENGLISH IS A CRAZY LANGUAGE

After 20 years of my life i've come to a conclusion that English is a crazy language. There is no egg in eggplant, nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple. English muffins weren't invented in England or French fries in France . Sweetmeats are candies while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat. We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradox e s, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing, grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the plural of booth, beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So one moose, 2 meese? One index, 2 indices? Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend? If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught? If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat? Sometimes I think all the English speakers should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane. In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that run and feet that smell?

How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy a r e opposites? You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out and in which, an alarm goes off by going on.

English was invented by people, not computers, and it reflects the creativity of the human race, which, of course, is not a race at all. That is why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible.

PS. - Why doesn't 'Buick' rhyme with 'quick'

hmmm... ok i think my brain needs a break for now... till the next very extremely rare time that something intellectual pops up on my mind. This interesting information was brought to you by your lovely Nisha (=

I shall end of with the chorus of the song which to me is truly inspiring:
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies IN YOU!

My very first post (:

2008-12-06T01:03:00.000-08:00

MY VERY FIRST POST (:

ok so am back to blogging again.
i hope this blog lasts and i don't let her
sleep.So there wont be any links and
am not telling anyone about my blog
ok maybe some. About the tagboard
not for now maybe, if you happen to drop
by and you know me than your plain lucky
and i would appreciate if you don't tell anyone
else that you found my blog. I just want to keep it low
profile.

So for now I've finally completed my As. Hope
my results are good enough to enter a local University.
i have been enjoying my holidays going out with friends,
catching up with people and all.As for Sarah am so sorry i
keep postponing our date, next week that's a promise.
For my choir friends will join you guys for the next outing ok.
This coming Tuesday is my job interview going with a friend.
Hope i get the job oh wait i have to she said i will after literally
hearing me. haha. I found a job at town. the best thing is the pay!!!
$9/HR~~~!!! its high considering the fact I've got no work
experience. Most importantly am doing something that am
good at or at least i think that is TALKING!! haha answering phone
calls. call centre environment!! I'll update more about it soon after
the interview.

Moving on so today is the Ben and Jerry's ice cream fest!! At fort
canning park. Am supposed to go with 2 of my friends but than
again here i am blogging at home. =x
oh well today is just one of those days i feel like staying home and spending
quality time with myself. haha besides its going to rain.It would be fun to eat ice
creams in the rain though. hmm should i go? ok maybe not firstly i don't think my parents
will allow due to the weather and also because i just recovered from a disastrous fever
and throat infection.

ok my cuzzy juz texted me. she wants to cum for the job interview too. =) haha hope we all get the job
really pray we do!!! Dear God pls oh pllsssssssssssssss. er ok hope it works out fine. enough said

As for Daniel, Nick and Gerald i really hope i get to meet them soon!! sadly our outing had to be postponed
because of the interview thing on Tuesday so they better give me the job or I'll turn hysterical!! haha
not that they care but they should. =/

hmm what else...
For now am happy with my blogskin, maybe because it says something the colours the effect it somewhat has on me. Hope it stays for awhile before am tempted to change my blogskin again and again.

anyway am supposed to be watchingg the Hindi movie aur me hum on vasantham but i don't know what am doing here bloggingg. i was so looking forward to the movie. oh wells..
i guess its nt meant to be? er oh wadeva

right now i got this song stuck in my head i don't really like the whole song but just this particular line which compliments so well with the music....you make me smile; please stay for a while now...haha bubbly colbie caillat!!ahhh...

oh for some weird reason i am feeling guilty for not watching the Hindi movie although its probably going to end
so i guess I'll go catch the remaining bits and pieces now.

so I'll leave with a small prayer from the bottom of my heart:
All i wish and all i truly want is for your happiness
i guess your in love again ... am happy for you and i
truly wish you get the girl you love! she's indeed lucky!
Hope everything turns out the way you want it to. =)
Dear God please hold his hand ans walk the road of life with him
and be his strength and please shine a little light during those dark
times in his life always! Amen